Dec 28th

hahah well it was really fun. cool little experience.

so the last two times that i have talked to you guys i am just wrecked afterwards and i usually cry haha and this time i didnt have that desire. i love you guys alot more than i ever have and i wanted to talk to you guys for a lot longer and i really was happy to see you guys and sad to say goodbye but i seriously was so happy after and i still am. i know that that was a blessing from the Lord that he gave for being obediente. its really cool to see how it the Lord does that. that call really changed how i looked at the call. like really it made me think of just how short everything really is and like that call is jusr kinda like a check up because like you said mom its so short everything and it just ends all of the sudden so you guys can better your bottom dollar that these next 8 months are going to fly by! haha i almost dont want it to happen! it wierd.

2 more experiences.

1. so one elder this week got sent home. the difference that you could feel between him and a normal missionary was really quite crazy. you could litteraly feel that he wasnt being obedient to the rules or the commandments. and it was just another testimony to me that wickedness never was happiness because that is goignt ot follow him for the rest of his life knowing that he wasnt able to make it. the elder was from my group when i got to the mission so its jus wierd to see in how much we really can change ourselves if we want to. i hope that elder can come back because he is a nice person and he connects with people really easily!

2. another elder finished his mission this last week. he was a really really good missionary and yesterday he called us after his interviewed to leave with president and he was just talking to us about how it was and everything and he said that one of the coolest parts of the whole interview was that president just told thank for what you did, you worked hard and you did your part. and the elder said that he just felt like that whole worldk just shrug off of his shoulders. like just a huge confirming moment from the spirit that what president said came from that Lord and really he had done what he was called to do. i litterly almost cried hearing that just because i figured out how bad i want the Lord to tell me that. haha it was a really cool learning experience to see how much i have changed. my heart has changed. what i want had changed. im not the same person but im happy with that because im the person that the Lord wants and needs me to be so that i can be His insrtrument. funny example of that is currently in the CIBER where we are typing katy perry is playing. at the beginning of my misison my heart like hurt not beign able to listen to music like that just becuase i like music a lot and that is what i wanted to listen to. and now one year later i have no desire  to actually listen to the song and i dont like what she says in the song at all. its so crazy the purifying proccess that the Lord will take us on if we let him. it not just for me in the mission right now its something that each of us have to do in our entire life and that is how we feel accomplished and we find happiness.

haha well that was my spiritual rant! it was awesome to see you guys!

LOVE YOU ALL

love you mom and seriously you look SO SKINNY ITS CRAZY! KEEP DOING WHAT YOUR DOING IT WORKS REALLY WELL!!!! CONGRATS!!! :)

and thank you for the sugar cookies! they were delicious!!!!!!!